Grammy Winner Toni Braxton: Abortion and the God of Vengeance


From The Blaze:
Grammy-winning singer Toni Braxton has revealed the intense guilt she felt after having a secret abortion more than 10 years ago.

Without healing of abortion loss, the intense guilt, shame and grief many women feel can lead to a twisting of their image of God. Braxton reveals how women can take their guilt, grief and fear of punishment for their sin and project those powerful feelings on to God twisting his image from one of a loving, merciful Father/Creator into an angry, revenge-extracting tyrant:

Braxton, who married Lewis in 2001 and divorced him in 2013, admits in her new memoir, “Unbreak My Heart,” that she felt immense guilt after the abortion, especially considering her strict, Christian upbringing. Braxton went on to have children with Lewis, though the termination had a profound impact on her perspective. She later had two sons — Diezel, 11, who is autistic, and 12-year-old Denim. The singer found herself wondering whether Diezel’s autism was God’s retribution for her decision to end the earlier pregnancy and whether her parents’ messy divorce and her lupus diagnosis in 2010 were additional punishments. “Is God punishing me for that abortion?,” she writes in the book, noting that she found herself thinking that it was “God’s payback to give my son autism.”

God did not strike her son with autism as some sort of divine payback for her abortion. However her Lupus diagnosis may be related to the ongoing emotional and spiritual stress, the guilt shame and complicated grief of her abortion stressing her immune system as she struggled to parent her autistic son amidst the chaos of her internal emotional state.

Those who have taken the painful but rewarding journey of repentance and healing discover that while they may have wondered far from God’s will in their lives, He is the exact opposite from the angry punishing tyrant they feared. Rather they discover that God’s mercy and forgiveness are central to the Heart of Christ who is as St Paul shares, the refulgence of his glory,
the very imprint of his being. The moral teachings of the Christian faith against abortion are rooted not in a desire to restrict freedom or punish but out of love of our Heavenly Father for his precious daughters. The Lord is grieved by the death of his unborn children but also the damage to the hearts and souls of his daughters who experience this loss.

Braxton’s experience can inspire those on the front lines working to end abortion and encourage mothers and fathers to choose life. But it also touches on the great need for education and healing resources for those who suffer after abortion.

To read more about the impact abortion has on women’s lives, please read my book, “Recall Abortion.”

5 Responses to “Grammy Winner Toni Braxton: Abortion and the God of Vengeance”

  1. Marie Steve says:

    God hates the sin of abortion, But he loves the sinner, n he is very merciful, he doesn’t
    punish us like that, I think that when the realization sets in, your naturally are going to have all sorts of guilt n fear n anxiously
    feel as though God’s punishing you, but I feel that God is waiting to forgive n show us his mercy n his love, but that fear of thinking that Our
    God will punish for the sin of abortion, that’s coming from the father of Lies, the devil!!! Jesus will forgive us, all we have to do is just repent
    He is Merciful, Not vengeful!!! I know, I have experienced his healing love n mercy!!! Be Not Afraid To Seek His Forgiveness!!!

  2. Mary Lou Schmucker says:

    God would not punish your son for your sin. He is a merciful God. I pray that Toni can find healing. Abortion has many lasting effects because it is completely against nature.

  3. Edith Berry says:

    I have an autistic son– When I began my healing journey for my 2 abortions some prayer warriors were praying for and with me and they looked at me and said, “Your son is not autistic because of the abortions, God is not punishing you.” I had told no one that I felt that way. God showed them that to bring and begin healing in my life. I look at my son as my child of grace. I hope and pray for Toni Braxton that she too can find that place of peace and comfort in God’s forgiveness and healing.

  4. Cathy Cevasco says:

    She can be an awesome witness to others especially because of her popularity. I pray she will continue to be such a beautiful witness to realizing how forgiving and loving God is and how he can bring ultimate joy and healing even in the greatest difficulties.

  5. Lucy Meseha says:

    God can teach us only if we surrender our will to His! Through his Sanctifying Grace in our subordinating our will to His power and life can we truly be at peace and true happiness. It’s like God is the car manufacturer and we keep trying to put molasses rather than petroleum in our engines! It may taste or feel better or be easier but in time we are going to be hurt and suffer for not following his Word!
    Please let us pray for all those mothers and fathers who have been ‘deeply damaged’ from that poor un-freeing life altering ‘choice/regret’ because I really believe that all of us at times in our life must understand to forgive one another because we too hurt Jesus the same way we hurt one another and as Our Lord said crucified on the cross, “Forgive them Father, they know not what they do.”
    I hope and pray that I as well as all of us stop this hardening of our hearts and darkening of our intellect and insubordinate of our will to God, who loves us more than we can even love ourselves by truly having a relationship with Him, because the devil is on the prowl roaring and always ready to destroy us.

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